First Date

The big day finally came, the first date. He basically let me plan the whole thing, which was nice in a way. He picked me up and we went to Granville Island. He had never been there, so I showed him around. We went through the market, and in Emily Carr. After we were done there, we walked the sea wall to kits, and back again. We just talked the whole time. There was honestly never an awkward moment. We went for lunch to Cactus Club, and after he drove me home. When i walked in the door, i realized there was no one home, so i texted him, and he came back. I had just gotten a puppy, Zoey, so he got to meet her. It was really nice to just spend the day with him. He told me he hadnt had that much fun in a really long time. Unfortuneatly, I had to work at 5 that night, so he drove me later. That was basically the one and only time we went out. After that all we did was go to his house. At the time it didn't really concern me, i just assumed we would end up together. But after a couple times, i started to get the feeling he wasnt really interested in a relationship. When i asked what we were, he said we were "seeing" each other, and that he wasnt seeing anyone else but he just didnt seem to want to fully commit. And he would get really mad when he found out i told someone about us. It was so bizarre, he was totally into it when it was just us, but when we were at work, he would just ignore me. And he lied to his family and told them i was 18, and denied he was seeing me to people at work. It started to really upset me, and i planned to confront him about it. Unfortuneately, he started ignoring me and calling me needy before i got the chance. I couldnt understand what went wrong! He wouldnt even talk to me at work anymore. Didnt tell me why, didnt return my texts, just completely cut me out. I had never felt so hurt before. It felt like there was something wrong with me. I didnt understand what i did wrong. It had to have been something i did! All i did was come home and cry for weeks, i dont even understand why! It felt like i was falling apart. I would just crumble as soon as i closed the door to my room. Why do guys have this effect on us? I can honestly say i felt like Bella in New Moon when Edward left her. When he said he didnt want her anymore, and she would clutch her stomach because it felt like she would fall apart if she didnt. Im not sure if you've read the book or not, but thats the best thing to relate the feeling to. Eventually the feeling slowly went away, and i found other guys to occupy myself =P